Let’s face it, half of the battles we face in life are those brought about by our own decisions; whether we thought they were from good intentions or bad. Others come our way naturally through interactions with those around us whose decisions affect us (both good or bad). How do we navigate this life of seeming uncontrollable circumstance? We never really know what the next day may bring us.
Like many my age, I’ve wrestled with the natural inclination to turn inward and to look backward second-guessing decisions made long ago by myself and by others. It’s a process of reconciliation we all go through as we realize later in life the things we once thought to be true are not and those we never thought true are.
As I get towards the end of that phase of maturing, I’m finding a sense of peace that I hadn’t had before brought about by a letting go of the things I had no control of and the realization that I’m not alone with the poor decisions I’ve made. Learning to forgive one’s self is a good thing even when others still hold onto what they believe in order to appease their need for self-justification.
Occasionally spinning around in that chair of life allows us all to look back at life today and forward at life in the future. It can be a difficult process at first as the enemy of our soul will try to condemn us for the poor choices we’ve made or tempt us to overly self-inflate ourselves taking more credit than we deserve for the good choices made. The one reassuring thing that has given me healing and peace of heart & mind has been the still, small voice of a loving Father who has shown Himself real to me through it all. In that, I can find rest; and so, can you.
Tonight, if you’re near that stage where you’re able to turn around in that chair of life and look around at the past, present, and future, I want to encourage you to ask your loving creator to show you when, and how, He was with you through those times. I know that He will. When He does, don’t be surprised if you begin to see things differently. Most importantly, you will grow in your faith knowing He will always be with as you as you travel through this short life here on Earth. And, that, is exciting!